A Great Weekend

Today is Monday. We had a wonderful family weekend. Due to scouts, our family gets a lot of quality time and I do believe what Terry and I do, makes for our boys to be very proud of us. This weekend was the Council's Fishing Derby. My friend, Sonya and I added a Webelos clinic to the derby. It made for a very long day but was well worth it.

Wyatt won again. This was the 2nd time in his scouting career that he has won a prize. Both times it has been a fishing pole and tackle. He swears it was for the largest turtle. I was told it was for the largest catfish/bullhead. Either way he won. Way to go Wyatt!

I am so proud of Wyatt! He has really become a great fisherman. I usually catch a lot of fish but this child can out fish me. I don't know how many fish he caught but he says he caught 6 turtles that day. There are too many turtles in that pond.

All weekend, I had sad moments. It is hard to believe that just a week ago, we had been down to Sundance and Trapp was with us having a great time. Sometimes I could see his little ghost running through the weeds. He loved that place. I still feel like he is with us at times. Not in a ghost way but I hear noises that he would make and look to see him. Then remember he isn't there. I know he misses us and the boys. As we him.

The clinic went well thanks mostly to my and Sonya's husbands. They are fabulous and without their support, we couldn't do it nearly as well as we do. Had a lot of compliments from the parents about what a great clinic and idea it was. I think it may become a traditional thing.

I am a little worried about Morghan. Treva gave me a stuffed dog to pull a trick on Terry. He carries it everywhere. Won't let it out of his sight. Not an unatural won't let out of sight thing. But I think he is grieving Trapp. I am sure it will pass but I need to keep an eye on him. I try to get him to talk about losing Trapp. He really doesn't say much. Time will tell.

Gotta go get a phone charger. I have misplaced mine. I don't know where I have put it.

General George Washington

Today was Wyatt's school play. He woke up this morning excited and said, "I can't wait to do this play mom. This is the best day of my life." He had the honor to do the lead in the play. I was very proud of him since he had the lines memorized in less than a day. Now if I could just get him to do that with school work. Ugh!

I went to the dress rehearsal at 10:00 am. Morghan's teacher said he was excited to see brother dressed as George Washington. Wyatt did look kind of silly with the white wig on. I thought he looked great! The dress rehearsal went well but later, when the parents were there, it went great!

The 2:00 pm showing had a lot of parents there. Terry came and sat with me as did Sonya. I was happy to see her. I think she really enjoyed it. Wyatt did a wonderful job. I think he was a little nervous cuz he wouldn't smile and he had his hands in his pockets. All of the kids did a wonderful job.

I was happy for the distraction. The boys weren't too upset about Trapp. They seem to have accepted it. Each day will make it easier but they still miss him so very much. He was so wonderful with the boys.

This weekend, we have a fishing derby for scouts to attend. I have a lot to accomplish before we head out. We will be camping out and doing a clinic too. Should be fun.

God is There For You

I am amazed when people can say there is no God. WTH? I have witnessed that there is a God. Yesterday, when my poor little doggy made his way to Heaven, God did not abandon me. I don't know what I would have done, had the city employee not been there. For my children not to have to witness their beloved pet lying in a street dead is definately a human angel sent to help. Not an angel as we believe they look like. This man did not have wings. He was as human as you and me. He was sent to be in that place at that time, because God knew it was Trapp's time. He sent someone to help me. The brutality of a death like that is tramatizing.

Then today, God sent my friend Sonya over. Yeah it was as innocent as asking her if she wanted to see a movie. Today was so very hard. The Schwan's man rang the doorbell. I went to tell Trapp to stay and he wasn't there. Rip my heart out. I never knew how safe that little dog made me feel. How many times I talked to him during the day? I still hear his pitter patter everywhere. God had Sonya here so that when I went to get the boys from school, she let me cry. Let me get my guilt out. Again, let me transition into overcoming this horrible time.

I get to school and the boys come walking down the sidewalk towards the car. Their faces are droopy and look like they are about to cry. I want to cry for them. Morghan won't get into the car. He doesn't want to come home with out Trapp being here. I finally coax him into the car. He tells me, "Mom, my heart hurts." I tell him, "Mine does too baby."

God sent my boys a human angel too. Treva stopped by and brought chocolate chip cookies for my boys. She hugged and kissed them and wrestled with them. Made them laugh.

I talked with Terry about getting another dog to make the transition of not having one easier for the boys. It won't replace the loss we have but will refocus on a positive. He said absolutely not. I will have to move out if I do allow another dog. He is right. We have to have a fenced in yard so this doesn't happen again. Besides, with our busy life and my job hunting, a puppy just doesn't fit into our lives. Even if we got an adult dog, it wouldn't work. I like the freedom of a cat. They do not have to be watched like a dog does. I would give anything to go back in time and have my little dog to look after anyhow.

Thank you God! Thank you for holding me through your human angels. I know Trapp is with you and happy. This makes my broken heart mend.

Trapp Dumb Dumb Little Pig

Oh how I love this dog. He is gone now. Ran in front of a car and was killed instantly. So I hope. I picked him up to move him out of the street. Luckily, only I saw the horrible sight. My boys were in school. We were heading out the door to go get them. A city employee was down the street and heard my crying. He called into dispatch and asked to send a truck out to take my poor liitle baby. So my boys never had to see his broken body. When I picked him up, I swear I felt his heart beating. Then it was gone. At least he died in my arms and knew that I loved him.

How do you tell 2 little boys that have never had death at their door before? They were so in love with that dog. How could you not be? They have been really sad and I let them work it out themselves. Give lots of hugs and kisses. Tell them how he is now in a field chasing after rabbits and squirrels in heaven. Trapp Dumb Dumb Little Pig, I love you!

A Day in the Life

Today was spent getting ready for the big webelos campout next weekend. Compasses....oh boy. Didn't really know how to work one. Borrowed a GPS from a friend hoping to cheat. Ok, so we don't know how to work a compass or GPS. Thankfully we only have to teach the compass. Read the book and now I am an expert. Kind of surprised, my hill-billy husband didn't know how.

We set up the coarse. Walked through it to make certain it is correct. Had a scoutmaster walk through it. Was only a few feet off. Not moving it. Whew! See I told you I am an expert.

Went fishing while there. Next weekend we probably won't have a chance. Caught a lot of fish. I am really proud of Wyatt. He is becoming really good at fishing. Even Morghan caught a fish. His was the first one of the day. I think the largest also. I am tired but it was a good day.

First blog

Hello all. Thought I would try out this blogging thing so many people before me have done. Sounded like fun when I am bored. I should be cleaning my house. With 2 boys, a cat, and a dog, things tend to never be clean.

Today was an adventure. Supposed to be in a parade for scouts. Why I chose to do it was stupid enough. It rained buckets this a.m. and finally stopped. We had the float in my bff dh's work in a garage. Worked on it while it rained. Made certain things were waterproofed. It stopped raining and they needed the garage so we were kicked out. Went across the street and parked under a gas station cover. Finished the float. About ready to run home, shower and head back with the boys, and found out the parade is cancelled. It wasn't raining. Hasn't rained since this morning. I had a few phone numbers in my phone to call scouts. Unfortunately, there were many that I didn't have access to. Hope they aren't too mad.

Tore off all the stuff on the trailer. Took over 3 hours to make it. Took less than 5 mins. to tear it apart. Had to take the board to the storage shed. Didn't have keys so left car and trailer by the shed and ran home. Take dh and kiddos so they can have to vehicle to go to a wood clinic. Bff was taking me home. Terry and kids take off and I realize my phone is in car. Something important I need to tell Terry. Use bff's phone. Bff reminds me to borrow GPS for a scouting thing (yes we are cheating). I tell her I will call her now. Pull phone out of pocket. WTF??? How did that get in there? Ok, so I am getting old and I am blond. What a dumbass!